All I hear anymore is lies. All I want is truth. But all I get is lies. I try so hard to do everything they way people want. But does it ever work? No. Everyone wants me to be little miss perfect. They want to hold the title above my head and say this is what I need to be. But its not what I am. Doesn't anyone get it? No, never. They all want to shape me into something, all want me to be what they want rather that what I want. No one cares and no one will. Period. I try and make friends but it doesn't work. And thats the whole problem. No one wants to listen, and when they do its not true they just want the information so that they can twist my words around and start rumors. When everyone says they want the real me I give it to them. Then they scream and shout and give the midde finger. All I hear is lies, that all I hear. I try and make friends with people, and I help them alot in so many different ways. Then come to find out they were faking the friendship the whole time. We were never really friends at all. How would that make you feel? Probably like shit. Which is how I feel. And no one cares. I don't do a thing to people yet they jump my shit about nothing. I join a roleplaying game called Furcadia to get away from my shitty life and it only turns out to be an exact copy of it. I do so much for my friends mate and my friend, then they turn and go frolicking away and starting rumors about me. Just what people do in my real life. But do they care? Nope, all they want is to make sure it all goes their way and that I'm out of the way and depressed. But what they don't realize is that how can they hurt me and make me depressed when I've been depressed for 6 years? They can't. All this is like a cold hard slap in the face isn't it? Well wake up, this is my fucking life.


All this refers to my "friends" on furcadia and in real life. Consequence, Ghostly Fire, Sani, Golden Hour, Sunny Dee, and Rainji. <-Furcadia. <--> Sam, Francheca, Ben, Shannon, Megan, Mason, Seth, Zack, Harrison, Terry, Melissa, and Rosie. <- Real life